There's this moment. After launching a pattern where it feels like, "phew! Finally time to relax!" I mean the goal for so long was to perfect it, review it, finish it and LAUNCH! The moment I hit that "go live" button, I inhale deeply all the thoughts of spelling errors, photos I probably forgot to reshoot, video links that I tested 4 times - but maybe I should go test them all again just in case...............
Then I exhale with a booming "IT'S LIVE!!" which elicits a response from my husband to run from wherever he is and give a congratulatory hug. Sometimes he brings champagne.
Kidding, it's sparkling cider.
This is such a treat. To sit down, reflect and write. The buzzed and flurried days preparing for a pattern launch are like having a thick cloud ring around my head and inside the cloud are all the tasks to complete for the new pattern. I pluck one task out of the cloud, polish it up until I'm pleased, and put it back. One by one until everything is waiting, complete inside the cloud, standing by for me to release them into the ether.
AI can go sit in the corner.
But today is the day after launching Fernweh. When all those tasks, checklists, and items to remember have been out in the world, on their own, doing what I designed them to do. And my cloud is gone.
I can breathe cloudless air. I can see through cloudless eyes. There are no rings around my head today. This is what rest feels like.
Will my product, the culminating last months of my life, survive out there? Possibly yes, possibly no. Time will tell. I am proud of this product. A fruit of my time, skill, effort and most of all, experience (all of which are given to me by a Higher Power than my own, I must not steal credit).
With this cloudless mind, I think I'll design something new...
Love people fiercely. Put others first. Look at the sky. Grow something. Remember that people have stories. Be excited about the pure things.